There's nothing like telling the person your heart just wants to be with, to be happy... even when it's not with you. I kind of died inside and I don't know what to to do now. What to do with myself, I know it's stupid like hell and I shouldn't even... still it hurts.

I don't want to breathe, I don't want to be awake, I don't want to die, I just want to disappear.